Rarrrrgh. D:

I know my layout is still sort of screwed up, but I'm a little too annoyed to delve into the process of figuring out why yet. >.<  I have no idea why the date area just says undefined. *sigh* But I'll figure it out eventually! lol. It's probably something stupid.

Annnyways, I wanna rant. Which is nothing new right? I do that all the time here. It's one of the main reasons I have this here. lol. Sometimes there's shit about secondlife that annoys the fuck out of me and I don't really want to put it all over Facebook, and anyone who DOESN'T play SL wouldn't understand any of it anyways.

So. I've been working in a club in SL for a few months now. It's been fine. I've gotten tipped, met a few people and been hired from it a few times. There's some girls there that I don't care for, but that's what happens when women work together. Our personalities just don't mesh so I don't really enjoy being around them. No problem. I generally just don't work when they're there. It's pretty easy to avoid people. lol.

Now one of the reasons I came to this club to work is SPECIFICALLY because in the rules it says, and I quote:

★Voice is preferred and allowed here HOWEVER it is NOT required.

Awesome! I can voice sometimes and the times I can't or aren't in the mood to, I don't have to! Right?

...right?

I THOUGHT I was right since I've been working there for months now. I've been in there with and without voice. I've had the owners and general manager and other managers in there with me while I was NOT on voice. No one ever said a word. Then today one of them IMs me and says I HAVE to be able to hear voice while working.

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REALLY?!? Monnnths later and now you're telling me I have to hear voice? Months after I've been working there and making tips and getting hired and giving you a cut. Months after I've been renting a room on your sim because I thought it was a cute idea. Months after, between paying that rent, their cut and my adboard, I've given you thousssandsss of Linden, you decide I have to have voice on. FOR FUCK'S SAKE. COME ON.

I get that a lot of people love voice in SL. I know that. But I also know that there are plenty that don't. I want to be able to voice when I feel like it, but not be required to do it when I don't. Honestly, 90% of my clients are text only. I've had 5 figure days of earning with just text. Multiple times. My emotes are generally well liked. Hell, I know several guys who prefer to not ever use voice because they say it takes them out of the fantasy.

SO if you're going to REQUIRE voice to be on, maybe you shouldn't have in your rules that VOICE IS NOT REQUIRED. DOES THAT MAKE FUCKING SENSE TO YOU?

I'm contemplating quitting the club. I dunno. I can go in sometimes with voice when it's empty I guess. Because last time I had my voice on in there I heard two managers, a girl and a client talking about the most retarded shit. Dog fucking and gay husbands and how they're practically virgins anyways and just... lots of crude, vulgar things that generally probably shouldn't be on the club floor. You obviously know I don't have a problem with crude, vulgar things but a lot of potential clients DO. So unless your club is catering towards those themes, the club floor should be more subdued and seductive than crass and vulgar.

Ugh.

I'll probably end up quitting.

She a stupid ho.

This is a thought that I've been mulling over in my mind on and off for a while. And to be quite honest, it's something that I think can definitely apply to SL and RL.

Why is it generally assumed that being a slut means a person isn't intelligent? Or somehow inherently "bad"?

I've gotten a lot of comments on my SecondLife name over the 4 years I've been using this avatar. I've been denied employment in clubs because of it. They wanted a "classier" image and my name didn't fit in. Alright, whatever works. I've had people exclude me from non-sexual activities and god forbid I accidentally end up somewhere PG or family friendly. I got told off once on a Moderate sim that didn't allow escorting. I wasn't there TO escort. I was there because a friend wanted to show me a train they had set up there.

All of these things were issues I expected from my SL name, but I just laugh them off because hey, I get it. My name is Slut and not everyone is comfortable with that. My display name is different for a reason. A lot of people have told me they aren't comfortable calling me slut and I'm more than ok with that. In fact sometimes it's almost jarring to me now when someone I don't know uses it because I sometimes forget it's my name. My FAVORITES though are the ones that ask me if it's ok they call me slut, or if I mind it. And I always have to laugh and say, "Well, I gave myself that name so...."

Anyways, getting sidetracked. Clearly my having the name "Slut" and being an escort in SecondLife and well, just all around SLUTTY in general hasn't had a negative impact on my intelligence.

In RL I've been promiscuous as well. My RL BF and I enjoy threesomes and gangbangs. I met him because he was one of my 1,000+ followers of my RL sex blog and to paraphrase, he started talking to me because he fell in love with my wet pussy. THOUSANDS of people have seen the RL me naked. I couldn't even give you a precise number of how many cocks have been in my mouth. Or even the name of all the men I've slept with. And disclaimer, I've always been safe/sane/consensual, been tested, used condoms, all the normal things people balk at when I say I've been just as much of a slut in RL as in SL.

But those things are my choice to do. It's my choice if I want to show off my tits. Or if I want to fuck 5 men in a night. My RL BF and I have a strong, stable relationship. We live together and we tell each other everything. I don't cheat on him. We're comfortable and happy with our relationship, and he loves that I'm a slut. And I love it too.

But look.... even after having dozens of cocks in me.... I'm still able to coherently write and express myself! I still received an excellent education. I still graduated high school with an A average. I still got scholarships to college. I'm still a classically trained musician. And I'm still a slut.

Enjoying being a "slut" and being intelligent are not necessarily mutually exclusive. Nor is being a slut my entire personality. Of course I like male attention. And female for that matter. I enjoy sexually charged conversations and roleplay. I enjoy SEX. I also enjoy cooking. And writing. And spending time with loved ones. And watching geeky tv shows and playing video games. Being a self proclaimed, and proud, slut is not the entirety of my being. And if I'm happy with the way I am, and I'm not affecting your life at all, then who are you to judge me for it? You may have your preconceived notions of stupid sluts and dumb whores, and I understand. But you might want to reconsider it, just a tad.